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I am sticking to my no coke/beer routine it has been 4 days and still haven't been suckered into either! It really isn't hard though, I have been having a VERY small cup of coffee in the morning to jump start my brain and then I am good for the day! I don't know if it is the lack of caffeine or the BCP's (I am thinking the BCP's) but I have been almost depressed this week. It isn't like I don't want to do anything, I just feel sooooo BLAH like not happy. I am not sad, or mad, or angry I am just not happy??? Jeremy is a little annoyed with it, and he is really good at cheering me up but I am just not myself. I keep telling myself it is for the better good (which it is) but man I will be glad when I am done with meds and can be back to my natural self!

Really excited about Monday and Jeremy is too! He makes me laugh, he was like so what vehicle are we taking? Well duh, probably my car since it is more comfortable and gets better gas mileage. So what time are we leaving? After swim, so like around 7. Oh, I don't think you can go to swim we need to leave earlier than that.....(he thought the appointment was at 10). Are you scared? Well, yeah a little because I just hope they don't find anything wrong that needs to be fixed before we can start. Are you? Well, ya! This scares the crap out of me! It is a lot of $ at a chance, but I know we will have a baby....one way or the other. That was the shortened version of our conversation, it was just sweet of him to ask how I was feeling and thinking about everything.