Water Ultrasound and Crazy Bitch

The fertility clinic I think uses the term "water ultrasound" so they don't scare the shit out of their patients. The technical term is "sonohysterogram" and yes, it is that terrifying. Water ultrasound sounds like they are going to just use some warm water in a soothing manner to evaluate your reproductive womb. When in reality they are wedging in a speculum, shoving a catheter through your cervix and into the uterus, and filling you with cold water. Yes, I got to experience this at 8:30 AM. Good morning to you too! I will say that this time around it was one of the better ones I had since she wasn't checking for tubal patency, only the lining of the endometrium. Still took her 3 speculums and 2 catheters.  On the plus side we know what to use when the time comes to transfer our little promises of hope from the petri dish to hopefully their final nesting place for the next 9 months.

I can tell that the lupron (daily injection) has definitely kicked in.  I had my first official freak out of the cycle. Like epic freak out. Poor Walgreen's manager didn't see it coming, and it wasn't his fault. I just couldn't fathom that it would take a pharmacy to take more than 2 hours to fill a Rx they had on hand, after returning to pick it up 24 hours later (since I wasn't willing to wait 2 hours) they STILL didn't have it ready and couldn't give me a courtesy excuse as to how much longer it was going to take.  The girl behind the counter said just one moment and walked off, 10 min later returned with another patients Rx that was waiting and told me it would be just a few more minutes.  WTF!!?!?!?! It seriously takes more than 2 days to fill a Rx??? I don't have a few more minutes that's why I came back, so it would be ready. So I could just walk in, sign and walk out.  So, the crazy came out in me and I stormed off. Standing by the exit were 2 young gentlemen (still in braces) asking if they could help me with anything.  They didn't see it coming. The vulgar tsunami that spilled from my lips was shocking even for me, I could see myself acting in this manner, knowing full well it was wrong but couldn't build a dam big enough to stop it. They apologized and asked if I would stay so they could amend the problem.  I left with the words "I didn't have time to wait 15 min for my Rx again, so I definitely don't have time for your shit either." After calming down with a good friend over lunch, I humbly went back through the drive thru and picked up the Rx without incident.  Needless to say I will never be returning to that pharmacy for multiple reasons.

It is the little things that drive me bat shit crazy. Jeremy eating potato chips, almost sends me through the roof. Seriously. Can't you eat your chips without crunching?!?!?! Dishes. Why are there sooo man Goddamn dishes?!?!?! I don't get it? I think that consumes half my day, just loading and unloading. I am contemplating going to paper products until my crazy disappears. I know these are irrational, and completely stupid, and irrational, and stupid.  I know it is the lupron, it is my LEAST favorite drug in the world.  I hate it. My husband hates it. HATE IT.  I am SOOOO grateful we were able to have a wonderful bonding vacation before I started this shit. Because lets be honest.  If I can't stand me, I can't expect him to either.  We can be friends again in about 4 weeks.