Enough Medical Talk.

So I am sure that no one knows anything about the past few posts/labs/ect. So I will post a little about my emotions of the week.

I am still having a great time loving life. I don't get upset like I used to about everyone else EXCEPT me being pregnant, about unfit parents, underprivileged kids. I have really tried hard to just accept the things I can not change.

Jeremy is really starting to open up about the whole process as well. We went out to dinner on Friday night and he asked me if I was scared. Well, to be honest...YES. I am! That is a TON of money to gamble on an idea that it may work. There are NO guarantee's on this working and I can't ask Jeremy to keep breaking his back for a "chance" at it. So I in return asked him if he was scared. "F*** ya I am scared!" was his polite response. He is scared of the black hole that will follow if it doesn't, he is scared that it may not work, he feels bad that I have to go through all this pain (physically and emotionally) while for others it comes so easily. But he has a lot of respect for me in that he knows I am a strong person and we can handle this little stumble. And hell, if all else fails he will go to Wal-Mart and just steal one, most likely their parents wouldn't notice anyway. (ha ha that is soo the truth for many of the kids, trust me I should know this!) Just the questions he has brought up lately lets me know that just because he doesn't show that he obsesses about it like I do, it is on his mind and he is concerned about it.

Only 1 month and like 3 weeks till we actually make this thing real! (Our trip to Boise) I can't believe how fast time is flying! Which is a good thing, I am not complaining. I am definitely ready for the holidays, and to know our fate of parenting. Well love to you all!