It Is Official-Updated

I am officially starting the whole process. I got my packet that I have to fill out before our 1st consultation on the 19th. Of course, I immediately filled it out I just need to drop it back in the mailbox today and then just wait for next Wed! I am making copies of everything and starting a binder so I have records of everything, I know may be a little over the top, but I want to be organized and not one of those ditsy people who take up way too much time from the nurses and doctors.

I am due to start probably Thurs. However, this month is a little weird. Usually my bb's get really tender from like 5 DPO but this month....nothing. I am not even sure if I did O? Thank God we are going to get this figured out!

Caution-Dusty DO NOT READ-Ok so just found out that my wonderful sister is having a baby boy, and while I am absolutely thrilled for them it is sooo hard. I seriously just want to break down, I knew this week was going to be hard, but ugh where's the knife? I am soooo freaking torn! How is it that most people can just wake up and say hey, lets have a baby and the most they wait is like 3 months. While I wake up every morning and think...why has it taken 3 YEARS?! Why did I have to lose my 1 chance I did have? Is this all to make me stronger, because I sure feel just torn down and defeated at this point...ok I gotta get outta here I can't hold back the tears.