Yep....today is THAT day. The day of NO MORE after today!!!!! So please.....DO NOT DISTURB tonight!!! We may be a little preoccupied.
I had my blood drawn this morning to check my E2 levels. Each egg produces a certain about of the chemical so they can get a glimpse of how well you are responding by looking at these levels. Soooo, if I don't hear anything today then I am to continue on the same dose until my ultrasound on Sunday.
Dusty (my older sister) is in the hospital hopefully having her baby today. While I am really happy for her I am also VERY jealous, and having a VERY hard time with it. I should be the one in there having a kid, I have waited a LOT longer than her, I have been through a LOT more than she has, Damn It.....I DESERVE to have a baby!!! I know those are totally irrational thoughts, she deserves to have a kid too, she is old enough, and mature enough, and responsible enough........I just don't understand why it has to be sooo hard for me. *wipe away the tears Sara....you are at WORK!* She gets an epidural....I get my blood sucked out by dracula! She brings home baby, I bring home NOTHING. I guess on a lighter note at least I get to have sex today (not that she would really care about that at this moment) and after that we are on the same restrictions for a while? I knew this day was coming, it isn't like out of the blue I find out all in the same day my sister is pregnant and having a kid...I have had MONTHS to deal with this. I just can't right now, hopefully I will be over this shlump soon so I can go see him after work (pending he makes his arrival).
I had my blood drawn this morning to check my E2 levels. Each egg produces a certain about of the chemical so they can get a glimpse of how well you are responding by looking at these levels. Soooo, if I don't hear anything today then I am to continue on the same dose until my ultrasound on Sunday.
Dusty (my older sister) is in the hospital hopefully having her baby today. While I am really happy for her I am also VERY jealous, and having a VERY hard time with it. I should be the one in there having a kid, I have waited a LOT longer than her, I have been through a LOT more than she has, Damn It.....I DESERVE to have a baby!!! I know those are totally irrational thoughts, she deserves to have a kid too, she is old enough, and mature enough, and responsible enough........I just don't understand why it has to be sooo hard for me. *wipe away the tears Sara....you are at WORK!* She gets an epidural....I get my blood sucked out by dracula! She brings home baby, I bring home NOTHING. I guess on a lighter note at least I get to have sex today (not that she would really care about that at this moment) and after that we are on the same restrictions for a while? I knew this day was coming, it isn't like out of the blue I find out all in the same day my sister is pregnant and having a kid...I have had MONTHS to deal with this. I just can't right now, hopefully I will be over this shlump soon so I can go see him after work (pending he makes his arrival).
*sorry for mispellings my damn spell check STILL won't work!*
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